Thursday, December 23, 2010

away for holiday

I really need to need to start working on these updates ahead of time, I still have plenty of ideas about what to talk about but I seem to easily miss weeks, mostly just from not making up my mind in time.  oh well for now I'm just poping in to say that I won't be back till early january. visitin family for the holiday and all.

in the mean time what are some of your thoughts on depression, I don't want this to be too much of a downer but there's a stigma attached to clinical depression and I don't really understand why.  plus there's always the fact that people need to state it's "actual" depression or people will assume your just being sad.  I won't name names but the second one actually happened to me recently I told I good friend that I don't' talk to very often that I've been trying to manage my depression and they started asking me what was going on in my life.  I had to point out that I've been medically diagnosed and medicated before they started to realize my depression was more then just being sad. 

Saturday, December 4, 2010

just the right song.

The other day my depression was spiking up again, has per my usual pattern I started devoting as much energy I could, to keep the lonely and sad thoughts out of my head (not very successful, but it tends to net better results then when I leave my mind to it's own devices).  Yesterday that manifested in me playing random clips and songs on Youtube.  when I managed to stumble across one that really helped out and seemed to calm me down a great deal.  the song is the closing theme to the second season of ghost in the shell stand alone complex. living within the shell

kind of ironic that the song which helped me out of the empty lonely feelings I had yesterday was actually called living within the shell, but maybe the way it uses the living within the shell imagery is exactly why it proved so effective.  I'm not going to pretend I fully comprehend why it was so effective yesterday, but I'm very glad it was and i'm going to try to keep track of songs that seem to be able to do this so they can help me out in future instances were my depression spikes up.

ofcourse i'm also very glad I have headphones, because I ended up playing that song about a million times yesterday, and if I didn't have headphones my roommate would probably hate me by now.  oh and just so I leave this entry on a high note, I'll present some proof that Keanu Reeves is immortal (possibly a highlander)

The guy on the left is Paul Mounet, who was an actor known for his deadpan acting style. He died under unusual circumstances and no body was found. I rest my case. (orginal source: )