hair and comics

as some of you may remember from another recent post I was growing out my hair, it took a few years but as vain as it may sound I was really enjoying it. well that's gone now, had to get it cut for some job interviews, my hair is now very very short, and I'm finding it more frustrating then I was expecting. 

in other news i've been reading a lot of comics, most of which I got for my birthday, I may be the last nerd on earth to read it but finally read the long Halloween, I also have hush I'll get to, and the three ghost in the shell manga (1, 2, and 1.5) the movie ghost in the shell being one of my favorite movies so I'm really enjoying seeing their source material, even if so far (still reading) I prefer the movie, mostly because it seemed to do a good job of taking the best and most thought provoking scenes from the long book and putting it into one story.

wow been a few weeks

sorry for the absence, but I was in a literature class, has a result it was common for me to spend the entirety of one day reading for my homework and the next day writing,  put more time doing homework in a week with that class then a month in others, but my final was Thursday so unless a job I should be getting soon takes up a similar amount of time I should be moving back to a weekly schedule soon.

came and left suddenly

today I had a bit of an odd experience, while I've been in a mostly lower period of my depression, it's been a fairly mild one overall, but this morning, I seemed to be slipping into a pretty bad one, all the normal thoughts and urges of my worst depression spikes were rearing up, I did my best to try and focus on the book I was trying to finish before the new year, and a few hours later I was starting to normal out to how I've been recently.  I'm not sure how to take the experience, based on my feelings, and the general way it felt it seemed more like a depression spike then when I get sad, but i've never had a depression episode that was so short.

role playing

sorry I haven't' been on much been a bit lower on energy lately (probably stress) and much of my spare energy is spent on making a website for a family member (a paying albeit low paying job).

anyway I've been trying to RP more on the haven, like most forum rp's it can take a while to find one that fits you and that lasts, but I'm hopeful for the one I'm in right now.  As you may recall role playing does often tend to help me out, since it's one of the few times I can freely and fully express my feminine side.  Still I'd like to do it some more, and I'm not sure how well I'll be able to keep up with multiple forum rp's (though  am available for large chunks of time in the evening) so anyone out there feel up for an email or IM rp, I'm open for suggestions, or we could go with my Isabelle scenario (don't worry the rp will focus on your characters new discovery, Isabelle tends to be a secondary character in her rp's) I also have a few sci-fi settings I can throw out, but I don't have a lot of story ideas for them.

transgender day of remembrance

The 13^th International Transgender Day of Remembrance is being held on November 20^th 2011: Since 1999, the Transgender Day of Remembrance (TDOR), on which those trans people who have been victims of homicide are remembered, takes place every November. The TDOR raises public awareness of hate crimes against trans people, provides a space for public mourning and honours the lives of those trans people who might otherwise be forgotten. Started in the USA, the TDOR is now held in many parts of the world. In the past, the TDOR took place in more than 180 cities in more than 20 countries in North America, Europe, Asia, Africa, and Oceania.
Sadly, this year there are 221 trans persons to be added to the list to be remembered, mourned and honoured as an update of the preliminary results of Transgender Europe’s Trans Murder Monitoring project reveals.
You can find a list with names and more detailed data here.

family and depression

I don't know how  to start this so with this awkward segue I think I'll just jump in.  recently I decided to post a comic on my Facebook it's not a comic I made but I felt it offered an important glimpse into what depression is like and I was hoping it could help clear up some of the many misconceptions about it.  (here's the comic for those that want to check it out http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html )

boy did this turn out to be a mistake, most people ignored it to then comment on some power rangers video odd pic that someone felt the need to post very shortly after my post. however those that did read it quickly started asking me invasive questions, told me I need to think positively and remember all the good things I have, ignoring the fact that the comic itself kinda points out that doesn't work and oblivious to the fact that all they're doing for me is adding guilt that almost put me in another bad spell of it. so for me lesson learned, I can't talk about my depression except with very few people who either now enough to not make it worse or at least won't get insulted when I say they're not helping.

I don't want to leave this on a downer so here are a couple of beautiful video's I found recently.

more assisans creed

hey I know it might seem weird talking about assassins creed in three posts in recent memory, but i thought I'd just share this little multilayer trailer for the upcoming game

http://www.gametrailers.com/video/ultimate-templar-assassins-creed/723599

now I know I might be making two much out of this but a few of the lines of dialog has me hopeful that there trying to make the Templar more like the one's in the first game aka, giving them some moral ambiguity, by making their ultimate goals something positive rather then just personal gain like it was in the last two games.